Boo...

I've been having these kind of feelings for a while and I think writing them down somewhere will help me not feel them anymore. I feel like I don't know jack crap about anything. Seriously. I don't know how to cook obviously. I don't know how to talk to people face to face. I don't know how to take a compliment. I don't know diddly squat. That is all.

Happy President's Day!

Yeah. About that. Seems like everyone else I know got it off except the fine students at NAU. Boo!

Anyway.

This morning I did not want to get out of bed. Seriously. I think my body new it was a holiday. But I did and I went to work and then I went to my institute class and felt good about the lesson. Then I went shopping at Target and got chocolate and I ate it all. Needless to say I felt pretty lethargic and gross. Luckily Amber invited me to go work out and we did and it was great! We did weights for about 20 minutes and then cardio for about 40. We mostly worked on our arms but all in all I feel great. Thank you Amber for helping get out and about.

It's a new life for me and I'm feeling good.

So whilst I was feeling sad because Amber was sad and I didn't know what to do or say I decided that I'm not going to do that anymore. If Amber is sad I will not feel sad. I will give her my input and let her do what she will with it. That goes for anyone really. I can choose how I feel every hour of every day and I hate feeling sad so I'm not going to do it anymore.
I watch Grey's Anatomy tonight and it's an earlier episode so Dr. Grey is seeing a shrink. A line the shrink said kind of stuck out. I don't remember the exact quote but something along the lines of if you live your life like you don't want to live then you'll end up dying. It sounded a lot better on the tube but I am done running and I'm tearing down this big wall I've built up. It won't be easy but I'm going to do it! Here's to the future! :D